“Life will reveal answers at the pace life wishes to do so. You feel like running, but life is on a stroll. This is how God does things.”
I go days feeling my life is so filling of happiness, and some days feeling my life is full of misery. I can’t decide if I make it this way, or I’m just stuck between a rock and a hard place. But I’m learning to leave decisions up to Him, and that He will show me where to go. I’m learning to build my patience level, and though some days it’s emotionally draining, and I sit here locked in my room….it’s shaping me quite a bit. Nick used to tell me “One day at a time….” and I used to say I believe it, but now, more than ever, have I started to take it to heart.
I laughed until I cried tonight. It felt good. I wouldn’t say that I forgot what that feels like, but it was like “refinding” a missing part. I miss my buddy, but 15 days!! And I get to go home this weekend, come back to school for 3 days, and then go back home. Go back for four days, and go up north. One weekend at school, home, one week at school, Thanksgiving. Hell week/parents come up for recital. Finals. Home for a month. So I’m wrapping up one semester. Five more to go…AHH!!
I’m so pumped for Thanksgiving and Christmas break. I can go home and have TIME. I hate feeling like time is slipping through my fingers, and I have no way of controling it. I can hang out with everyone, and those that I haven’t really seen since the summer. I miss them quite terribly. Plus partying…without worrying about how much time I have left before I’m back up to school yet again.
And I’m looking forward to the whole Christmas experience. I like it when the whole fam fam gets together. It sounds corny…like out of a Christmas movie…but all the stress is worth it in the end for the smiles and laughs.
This past weekend was totally necessary….I forget how much I need mom until I spend time with her. It was interesting…we actually laughed, genuinely. I haven’t seen her do that in awhile. It made me smile. I think she needed this past weekend as much as I did.
But my journey is continuing, and before I know it it will be summer again. It’s crazy to think that I’m half way done with my BA degree. Seems like just yesterday I was saying good bye to everyone I had graduated with for the last time.
