When there was only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you….
Often times I sit and wonder if I make the same impact on peoples hearts, as they have made on mine. Change scares me so much, that I often feel like it’s holding me back. This is such a huge change that I’m afraid I’m going to lose relationships I’ve worked so hard at. Which puts my trust in myself at a seemingly low level, as well as the trust I have in others. Everything is changing so fast, and it seems like every time I blink someone is engaged, pregnant, moving out of town. I continually tell myself that they weren’t meant to be if they are never heard from again—easier said than done.
I wonder how much more beating my heart can take….
I had a scare this weekend, nothing I SHOULD have been freaked out over, but I freaked none the less. It was a reality check. The facade was nice and calm, but my heart was in my throat.
It was days like that that I wished the one person that wasn’t involved that could make me laugh didn’t live 787.24 miles away.
Back to work tomorrow. This month end thing is kicking my ass
